Hey guys, today I want to talk about how I feel as the stay at home parent. I’ve been wanting to write about this for a while but I felt weird about it for some unknown reason, anyway my husband has another works meal out coming up and I though now was the perfect time.
So I love being a stay at home mum, it’s fantastic that we can afford for me to be at home and I know how lucky I am to be in this situation. I’ve never missed a first word or a first step and I’ve always been there to comfort them when they need me, pick them up from school when they’ve been ill and be at all their appointments. It’s a luxury that a lot of people don’t have now but on the flip side of that I also feel a bit left out and lonely as I don’t have any friends in my local area at all and the friend’s I do have live pretty far away.
When work’s nights out come around wives and partners aren’t invited and in a couple where both parent’s work that’s not a huge issue as they get their own work’s do’s but as a stay at home parent I don’t get that at all and I feel a bit blah that I’m completely on the outside looking in when it come’s to these thing’s. He talk’s about it the next day but I have nothing to say as I don’t know these people at all. Night’s out just don’t happen for me, I’ve had a couple of weekends away with the girls which is fantastic but it doesn’t help the fact that I still feel very much like an outsider when it come’s to my husbands life at times. Because of how I feel I can end up being a total bitch to him and make him feel so guilty about it which in turn make’s me feel even worse. It’s a ridiculous situation to be in!
I know you’ll all be thinking oh just go an make some friends locally but I find that very difficult. My kid’s are too old for toddler groups and I feel too shy to go and strike up a conversation with the mum’s in the school yard, I can be quite awkward socially and I have a wicked resting bitch face so people tend to think I don’t want to know but really I’m just painfully shy! I’ve considered going out to work during school hours once my youngest start’s in august but with 5 kid’s theres always someone ill or needing to be collected from school and once one gets a bug they generally all get it which usually get’s me 2-3 week’s with at least 1 child off school then there’s school holiday’s and any wage I earned would be instantly gone due to childcare costs so it’s just not going to happen.
So there we have it, it’s hard being a shy stay at home mum. I have found lately that I’m less paranoid about him going out and I’m not sure whether that’s because I’m feeling better in myself and not struggling so much with the kid’s but we’ll see!
See you next time, Em xXx